I don't know what it is. Maybe I've grown from my last relationship, or maybe I've gained a new insight to things and a newfound perspective. I've yet to piece it together. Whatever it is, though, I have been feeling content. As in, I am not afraid anymore of losing people. I used to be clingy and fearful. Very fearful. It wasn't that I didn't have any trust in my ex-boyfriend at the time, I just didn't know a lot of things. And I think that is what fear is based on. Fear stems from ignorance and lack of understanding. Fear stems from not knowing. If you knew and you understood, can you still say that you have fear? Fear is that lack of control. Some say it is a natural instinct--that fight or flight drive. Biological. And some might say it is merely a fabrication. It is a fabrication of the mind. It is something that we create ourselves as way to compensate for what is lacking.

To be continued...